♥ It's Been Awhile ♥

I haven't wrote on here in forever, so I figured I would take some time & update this blog today. 

I haven't been up to much except the daily routine..getting kids off to school, man off to work, housework, dinner, quality time with family & then bedtime & then the process starts all over again the next day.

We've been watching A LOT of movies here lately!  Haven't watched many that are even worth mentioning so I'll just tell you about the good ones!  I'll mention some of the other ones we've watched that you shouldn't waste your time or money on at the end of this post.

Shrek: The Final Chapter is a pretty cute movie.  We all enjoyed it! 

The Sorcerer's Apprentice is a great one!  Nicholas Cage is in it & he did a great job with his role in the movie. 

Toy Story 3 is also really cute!  If you haven't noticed Disney movies have by far been the best ones we've watched here lately.

The Expendables is a great movie & I loved it!  It's full of action & hot guys!

The Losers is also a good action movie & it has some funny parts throughout. 

From Paris With Love is an awesome movie!  I love John Travolta in this movie!  It's action-packed & even has some laughs.

Twilight: Elipse is good, but only if you're into the series.  Team Edward all the way!  Ok, ok Taylor Lautner is a lil hottie, but I've liked Rob Pattinson from the beginning!

The movies we've watched in the last month that I wouldn't recommend unless you are in need of some disappointment are:

The Disappearance of Alice Creed....it's one of those that kinda gets your hopes up & then bombs terribly. 

Scott Pilgrim VS whatever it was is just the most stupid movie I've ever seen....it's almost so stupid it's a little bit funny, but just a little.

A Crime...ok, this movie started out ok, & overall wasn't terrible if you like drama, but it just wasn't my cup of tea.

Eat Pray Love....this movie wasn't horrible, but it was so long that I started to lose interest.  Ladies~this movie is not one to watch with your man!  He will do nothing but make comments the whole time about how bored he is!  The only thing my man got out of this movie was my new nickname 'Groceries'  lol

Circle of Pain...if you want to see a bunch of actors who don't know how to act....rent this!  The guys are HOT, but other than getting to see them with their shirts off...this was a total waste of time.

Hunt To Kill....Steve Austin is nice to look at & is a great actor until he opens his mouth!  This could have been a good one, but it just wasn't. 

50 Dead Men Walking....there's really not much to say about this one except we didn't even make it through half the movie before we turned it off & that wasn't soon enough!

The Brother's Bloom....once again, this one wasn't horrible, but it wasn't exactly good either.  It had a few funny parts, but that was about it.

The Hunted....maybe would have made it on the good list if I hadn't passed out! lol

Splice.....there are no words to explain how horrible this movie is & horrible is an understatement!

Operation: Endgame....had some funny parts but sucked overall. 

Well, as you can see, we haven't watched many good ones here lately.  There's been a few but not as many as I would have liked.  I'm just glad the ones that were good made up for the horrible ones we watched.  If you have any suggestions for good movies that you've watched here lately let me know even if they are old ones....we love watching movies! 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 



♥ A Beautiful Sunday Morning! ♥

My favorite college football team, OU, won the game last night against OSU!  It was a great game!  Both teams played well & it was close all the way to the end. 

OU 47   OSU 41

Today I want to share a scripture from the Bible.  I love reading the Bible.  It means a lot to me when I can pick up the Bible & turn to a random page & something on the page will catch my attention & really mean something to me.  For today I chose Proverbs 4:18

But the path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day.

To me personally, this says that we must always be fair & just in our everyday dealings.  If we do this, we will be living as God wants us to live & be on the right path to meet Him when He calls us home. 

Our God does not discriminate against anyone.  He is fair & just.  He died for our sins & forgives us for ours.  He doesn't just toss you out after you mess up...He gives us the chance to pray for forgiveness & repent for our sins.  He is a very forgiving God & loves us without condition. 

God is Great!  God is Love! 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ It's Bedlam Baby! ♥

Tonight is the Bedlam game!  It's a much anticipated football game between two state rivals...OU & OSU.  I am personally an OU fan!  Boomer Sooner baby! 

Our household will be watching this game tonight & there will be lots of yelling & cheering for our team!  No matter who wins...it will be fun times!

BOOMER SOONERS ALL THE WAY! 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ The Day After... ♥

Well, it's the day after Thanksgiving & I'm still stuffed from all the great food I ate yesterday!  I was going to indulge in a little Black Friday shopping, but I'm not so sure that I want to brave the crowds.  I saw this collage photo frame at Wal-mart for $7 which I am really wanting to go get, but still really not sure that I want to get out in all the mess!  For now, I'm going to get some cleaning done & try to play catch-up on my laundry...maybe I'll get out later when things quiet down a bit.

We had a great time yesterday with my family.  My BF, the kids & I went to my mom & dad's for Thanksgiving.  I was running late as usual so by the time we got to eat it was almost 4 & we were supposed to eat at 2!  I don't know why I have such a hard time being on time anywhere I go! 

It was great getting to see my sister & her family!  My nephew is getting so big & talking so much!  He's so adorable! 

I guess I'm off to do some much dreaded cleaning...I've had 2 cups of coffee & I'm still not really motivated to do anything, but I've got to get it done today! Here I go! 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Gobble Til You Wobble ♥

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

I just wanted to get on here & wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!

I am thankful for my wonderful family & great friends!  Hope everyone has a blessed day!

Love you all! 

 XOXO~
Just A Girl

♥ Ah.....Life! ♥

  I've been busy here lately battling a depression of some sort....cry all the time & just got the 'blues'  I hope they hurry up & go away, but if not, I'm prepared to try something to help me out. 

 Dealing with battles of the heart is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do & I don't like it at all.  I'm slowly learning that there are things I just have to let go of & realize that everything happens for a reason.  I need to learn to be happy with my life because it's not a bad one at all....just had some things that didn't go exactly as I had planned but then again, does anything ever work out like we want it to? 

I have awesome kids, a great man, a good family, a goofy dog & a house to live in, food to eat, clothes on my back & a good bed to sleep in....I am thankful for all of it!  Sometimes I want to rip my heart out & replace it with steel armor, but I know that wouldn't be good for my body!  I am trying my best to keep a smile on my face, but some days it's a battle I lose.  In fact, since the time change...it's been a battle I pretty much lose everyday, but it's slowly getting better...seems like the closer it gets to the holidays..things hit me the hardest. 

This Thanksgiving is going to be hard...but I can do it...knowing they are watching from the heavens & they will always be in my heart & one day I'll see them again!  For those that don't know..I'm talking about my grandparents...my grandpa passed back in 2005 & my grandma just passed May of this year...it's hit me like a ton of bricks & I'm still in the grieving stage...I think it made it especially hard because I didn't get to say goodbye, but I am thankful that her death was a comfortable one & that she went in her sleep.  I always prayed that when God took her that he would do it in her sleep & that it wouldn't be painful or slow...he answered that prayer.  She lived a long, good life & she was ready...I personally think she had been waiting 5 long years for that day so she could once again join my grandpa in Heaven. 

 My man let me pick out & order a necklace from The Vintage Pearl & so I ordered one in remembrance of my grandparents.  The one I ordered is the layered Mother of Pearl.  The inner layer says 'in loving memory of grandma and grandpa' & the outer layer says 'until we meet again may God hold you in the palm of his hand'  I can't wait to pick it up & finally wear it around my neck!  Only a week to go! 

Well, I guess that's about all I have to say for this post...I have some other things going on in my life, but that's a whole other post which I will get to later on today....thanks for reading & to all of you who support me emotionally...it's been a long tearful journey & I pray for better days soon.

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Thankful ♥

Today, I am thankful for my children....they keep me sane, literally.  They are my world & they brighten my days.  They are always saying things that crack me up.  My firstborn with all her boy drama LOL oh my!  I don't remember being that boy crazy when I was that young, but maybe I was....too far back for my memory.  My son always has little funny stories to tell or funny drawings to show me.  Some of the things that come out of that kid's mouth is just crazy funny.  My youngest just says the cutest things right now.  That along with her tattling, about everything, always gets me to laugh. 

I'm not the best mom ever by any means, but they tell me I am on a daily basis & that's good enough for me...as long as they think I am...that's all that matters! 

I'm thankful that I have 3 healthy, beautiful children!  I've always wanted one more...felt that tugging at my heart like I was meant to have one more, but now I'm not so sure anymore.  I still would love to have another one some day, but with all the trouble I'm having I just don't think it's going to happen for me.  I have to be ok with that & I know that, but it's hard & it's emotional & it sucks big time.  I've been getting upset lately over the smallest things...bawling at every little thing & it is driving me nuts!  I don't know what's going on with me right now.  I don't know if my endo is acting up & if my body's producing too much estrogen & that's causing me to just cry at everything or what, but I can't handle it.  I'm thinking it's time to go back to the female doctor & talk about my options, but I'm scared & I'm sad about it.  It would make it permanent & I don't know if I'm ready for that yet.  It would be like taking a part of me away forever & it's something I could never get back & even talking about that sets me off to crying again.  This was just supposed to be about something I am thankful for & it turned into a sob story...it's just that this has been on my mind a lot here lately & I needed to get it out.

I am definitely thankful for my babies that God has blessed me with & now I'm going to thank God for all he has given me in this life & pray for strength to get through this rough time. 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Where Has The Time Gone? ♥

My beautiful firstborn daughter just turned 11 on the 10th of November!  I can't believe it!  It seems like just yesterday I woke up in a big puddle of some warm liquid & was hoping & praying that I hadn't wet myself in my sleep!  I ran downstairs to tell my mom & she said surely not...I bet your water just broke!  I can remember taking a shower & getting cleaned up while my mom made me eggs & bacon for breakfast.  I also remember her running back in the house to grab a towel for the seat in the car just in case I had any more 'accidents' on the way to the hospital!  I was in labor for nearly 16 hours!  I pushed for about 45 minutes & finally at 10:54pm out came my adorable 8 pound 6 ounce papoose!  She had the most beautiful full head of dark hair & the biggest most pretty blue eyes I had ever seen!

For her birthday, my BF & I stopped & got her a bouquet of flowers & had them delivered to her classroom at school. 

Our little neighbor's birthday is the day after hers, so the weekend before their birthdays, we got them a huge cake & grilled burgers for them.  We had a great time celebrating their births together! 

Happy Birthday to my beautiful daughter & her beautiful friend!

Hard to believe it's been eleven years already!

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Melt-Me Momentos ♥

I swear I could write a book with all the sweet comments my man says to me.  He is always saying the sweetest things & I absolutely love it!  I really didn't think there were any genuine romantic guys out there anymore.  I'm just so glad that I happened to meet one & that we fell in love!  The most recent sweet thing he said was...

"The more I'm with you...the more I'm not afraid of marriage"

I do hope one day that we will tie the knot, but I'm in no hurry...we are happy as we are now & like the saying If it ain't broke...don't fix it...I don't want to mess this up! 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Moments I Fall In Love With Him A Little More ♥

This incredible man amazes me more & more everyday!  He is so great with the kids & they just adore him.  He brushes the girls hair every night after they get out of the bath.  He makes them laugh, talks to them about everyday things, & makes them feel so special & important.  He doesn't believe in spanking so whenever they do something they aren't supposed to...he corrects their behavior by talking to them about what they've done & what they should have done.  My son has warmed up to him so much that he told him that he loved him one day as they were getting off the phone with each other.  I was so surprised by this that I almost started crying with tears of joy.  I am so glad they all love him like they do & that he returns that love tenfold. 

 XOXO~

Just A Girl

♥ Trick Or Treat ♥

For Halloween, my little trick-or-treaters were cute little witches & a handsome little ninja!  We got the girls some cute little purple & black striped tights & pink & black striped tights with some cute little shiny skirts to match!  We did glitter hair spray & some face paint.  For the ninja, he just wanted the outfit, so that was easy enough!  

We had a great time trunk-or-treating at a few churches around where we live.  We went with our neighbors which was nice!  They are such nice people & we have a good time anytime we get together with them. 

My sexy man & I

My man is so perfect!  We are still doing great & I am still falling more & more in love with him everyday!  We have such a great time together no matter what we are doing...it's amazing!  There is no doubt in my mind that we will be together forever & he lets me know he feels the same way everyday!

Our relationship is just so comfortable...it's like we don't have to work at being in it, if that makes sense.  Being in love is the greatest feeling in the world!


XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Pumpkin Fun 2010 ♥

We took our kids & some neighbor kids to the pumpkin patch today & let them all pick out their own pumpkins.  Then we came home, cleaned them out & carved them.  I was in charge of drawing the faces & the kids were in charge of telling me how they wanted it drawn & cleaning them out & my other half was the master carver.  We all joined in the fun! 

The Master Pumpkin Carver

Our neighbor's pumpkin

My big girl's pumpkin

My boy's pumpkin



My youngest's pumpkin



This was our fun-filled day of pumpkin patching, cleaning & carving! 

Happy Halloween 

XOXO~
Just A Girl  

♥ My Son ♥

I have some great news!  My son got to come back & live with me again!  I am so excited about this because he lived with me for a year back in 2008 to November of 2009 & then his dad just ripped him out of my arms with no advance warning.  It was heartbreaking for my son & I & I got really depressed over it.  It was hell not having him live with us.  Last week, that all changed!  His dad decided that it was in my son's best interest that he come live with us again! We are so happy he's back!  He is a totally different kid when he's with us.  He morphs into this sweet little angel...it's just amazing how much his personality changes!  

I love him & know that with each day that passes, he will continue to become my sweet little angel again.

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ An Update ♥

I haven't wrote in awhile so I figured I would do so now while I have some time. 

Friday night was going great...My man had been out of town & gotten home & decided to take us all out for dinner at Senor Salsa's.  I had the amazing shrimp dish that I always get & it was delicious as it has been every time I've gotten it.  The kids loved it & we all enjoyed our dinner.  We left the restaurant & came home to relax & we were fixing to sit down & watch a movie when all of a sudden a severe sharp pain started in my abdomen.  It was so horrible that it made me extremely nauseated.  I was in the bathroom every 5 minutes only to sit there & not be able to go.  My BF decided that he was taking me to the emergency room whether I wanted to go or not & said either to let him take me or he was calling an ambulance, so figuring I had no option to stay home & wait it out, I let him take me. 

We got there around 9:00pm & sat there forever.  I finally got called back around 3:00am & they put an IV in & drew blood, pumped me full of an anti-nausea medicine & morphine & then made me drink this nasty dye so they could do a CT scan.  It was horrible, but the morphine wasn't half bad.  After the CT scan, the doc comes in & says everything looks fine & I'm just hurting from the surgery...gives me a script for a few pain pills & out the door we go.  

I'm not sure what made the pain so severe, but I'm hoping & praying that it doesn't come back. 

I'm doing ok now.  A few pains here & there, but nothing like it was.  My man & kids are being so helpful & taking care of the cleaning & cooking until I get better.  I'm so thankful that I have them here with me. 

Well, that's all for now, but be on the lookout for a few more blogs in the next few days...I have been taking some pictures of random moments in our household & will be sharing them soon! :)


XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Surgery update ♥

Surgery went well this morning...I am sore from the incisions & the gas they ballooned my belly up with trying to escape, but other than that my pain seems to be bearable. (with medication of course!)

Earlier, we had a little problem...I had went to use the restroom & was taking a glance in the mirror as I passed by & noticed that I looked a little yellowish.  I went to get 5 second opinions & they all said I was looking a little yellowish too, so I called the doc.  The nurse said that as long as I'm feeling ok it shouldn't be an issue, but if I start feeling sick or if I'm still yellow in the morning I have to go to the doctor to have some bloodwork done.  I'm hoping it's just my body adjusting to the changes or something & that all will be well in the morning...I guess we'll find out in the am!

I want to say a special thanks to my sister & nephew & my mom for coming up & being there while I was in surgery!  I love you all!

I also want to thank my man for being there with me & literally holding my hand while we were waiting.  He is being absolutely AMAZING with his caring for me skills!  He helps me up & down, gets me whatever I need, makes me food, holds me when I'm cold, talks to me when I'm upset, does anything & everything he can for me or whatever I ask him to do!  I sure am one lucky girl and I might add...he sure is one lucky guy! :)

My bestest friend & her family sent me a flower bouquet! Aren't they beautiful! 

I don't normally post personal pics of this nature but Mr. Amazing took a few earlier so I figured why not?  I thought it was kinda funny that they forgot to take one of the leads off from the heart monitor...guess it's not really that funny but the pain meds & how I was just feeling around & found it was pretty funny lol....okay probably just to me! :)

Enjoy! or not so much...lol

XOXO~
Just A Girl

♥ A Quick Update ♥

Just wanted to write a quick update about a few things...I have been having horrible pain since Saturday & decided to hit the ER today because it just became unbearable even with pain meds.  They think I have an ulcer because of my gall bladder not functioning properly.  They gave me an awesome (NOT) GI cocktail which is some meds mixed together that numbs the GI tract, prevacid & some pain medicine.  I still hurt after all that but it took the edge off.  On Wednesday, I have surgery to remove my gall bladder & repair my small umbilical hernia.  Everyone's telling me that I won't miss it & after the pain I've had the last few days...I'm beyond ready!

My wonderful, amazing boyfriend has been taking such good care of me & the munchkins!  He's a Godsend for sure!  He is going to end up spoiling me...I'm not used to being treated like a Princess.  He makes me feel so loved & so comfortable.  I can be myself around him & it's awesome!  We have so much fun together!  We goof off & are always having a good time no matter what we are doing. It's amazing how he can lift my mood if I'm having a rough day.  He always seems to say what I need to hear at just the right time.  I've never had anyone read me like this & it's crazy, in a good way.

   We got into a discussion today about officially being boyfriend & girlfriend & who said it first & yadda yadda....later on in the day, I said, so are you my boyfriend?  He says, "Let me put it this way...we may never get married but I'm your next husband.  I'm never letting you go."  I have no idea how to take this comment...I kind of dug a little deeper & asked what he meant & he just said he doesn't need a piece of paper telling him he's committed to someone & I feel the same way, on one hand, but on the other hand, marriage means something to me & it's more than just a piece of paper.  We aren't even talking about getting married anytime soon at all & it's crazy how the simplest conversation can turn into something deeper & more complex in a heartbeat.  I guess it's kind of like relationships in that sense. 

I'm just so glad I finally met the man God made for me....it's so amazing, which seems to be the word I use a lot to describe him as well as our relationship.  It's the only word that fits absolutely perfectly!

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Proud Little Lady ♥

My youngest little cutie pie had a loose tooth the other night & wiggled it til it came right out!  She worked & worked on getting it out without my help & she did a great job!  She is so proud that she got it out all on her own!

Now she is front 'toof-less!'  She sounds funny when she talks & it is just adorable!  She is so excited to put it under her pillow tonight so the Tooth Fairy can visit!


Time for the Tooth Fairy to collect her tooth!

♥ Part of the Past Playing into the Future ♥

Living

And she says, 'I just feel like dying.

I don't think I can make it another day.

 Merely existing, but not truly living.'

As if her life could be lived any other way.

She is lost, confused, and out of control

Falling into order and justifying it all

Routine becomes her life sentence

Ridiculed by self-existence

Emotional detachment at it's best

Ruining the girl who strives for the rest

Self-sacrificing her own happiness

Realizing it is only her dream

What may, remains a constant battle

Thriving to keep her from going insane

Her reality became her nightmare

Slowly suffocating without even breathing

Until one day something started changing

She never quit hoping

She never quit praying

Her mere existence lost and now she is living

I wrote this poem a few years ago.  I had felt trapped & monotonous with my life in general.  I felt back then that this poem fit perfectly because I made some changes & felt good again.  I believe now that I wrote this poem years before it actually had true meaning behind it.  Sometimes we have to let go of our expectations &  ideas we've held on to for far too long, in order to let what's meant to be happen...

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ He took my heart with him ♥

I never knew it would be this hard to be away from the man I have fallen in love with.  The sad part is, he will only be gone less than a week!  We've been away from each other before, but back then, it didn't feel as emotional as it does now.  Our relationship has taken a turn towards a deeper, stronger attachment to each other.  I guess the "L" word torched the spark that had already taken it's place in our hearts.  Love has totally fanned the flames of our burning desire for one another which makes it unbearable to remain apart for any amount of time...He has only just left this morning & already I find myself missing him like crazy!  I miss seeing his beautiful eyes as he stares into mine while ever so gently holding my face in his strong hands.  I miss his smell & the touch of his lips against mine.  I miss his voice that has the power to melt me whenever he speaks.  I miss his arms wrapped around me tight & his skin pressed against my cheek as we fall asleep.  I miss the way he looks at me from across the room & makes me blush because I know he's going to say those 3 words that send me into a blissful oblivion.  I miss the way he makes me blush when he tells me how beautiful I am & when I look away, he takes my face into his hands & looks into my eyes & tells me again face to face & really makes sure I'm hearing that I'm beautiful & amazing & I miss the way he makes me believe him.  I miss the way he makes me laugh so hard I almost cry.  I miss the way he reaches out & grabs my hand when we are walking together.  I miss the way he comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me & gently kisses the back of my neck & whispers the sweetest words in my ear.   I miss the way we sit around & talk for hours about anything & everything.  I miss the way my kids run up & give him hugs & kisses & the way he scoops them up in his strong arms.  I miss the way he's so genuine & sincere & makes all of us feel like we mean the world to him. This man means the world to us.  This man took me by the hand & led me by my heart & made me believe in love. 

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Easier Thought Than Said ♥

I am the happiest girl in the world!  My wonderful, amazing boyfriend told me he didn't care if it was too soon that he had to tell me how he feels & that he just couldn't hold it in any longer!  He told me that he is falling in love with me!  The night went on & we watched a movie & just hung out talking & listening to music like we always do....then he grabbed me, held my face in his strong, gentle hands, looked me in the eyes & said, "You are so wonderful to me & everything you do is so wonderful.  You took a man who never thought he'd love again & made me love you with a love I've never felt before.  You make me feel so loved & so cared for.  I want you to know that I'm scared to lose you & I've never been scared to lose anything.  You make me want to be a better man.  I love you baby."

Let me just say that whatever cloud I was floating on before is nothing compared to where I'm at now!  He has this way of making me feel like the luckiest girl in the world...like I've found my Prince Charming!  It's such a beautiful feeling.....he is such a beautiful person...he is so caring, so patient, so loving, so kind, so gentle yet so strong, so intelligent, so amazing!  He is everything I've ever looked for in a man & yet so much more than I ever expected! 

Our songs to one another are Whitesnake 'The Deeper The Love' & 3 Doors Down 'Your Arms Feel Like Home' 

He is ever so slowly building up my faith in love & making me believe that maybe...just maybe...true love does exist...

XOXO~

Just A Girl 

♥ Love Letters & Such ♥

Ok...so you know how being a hormonal, emotional, googly eyed girl sometimes gets in the way of a good thing? Well, it didn't, but it totally could have! You see, in my mind I have this perfect description of what I want in my Prince Charming & my Prince Charming writes me love letters or at least little simple notes every now & then. Well, I started to think that maybe Mr. Wonderful wasn't my Prince Charming because I had wrote him a little note a week ago or so & he hadn't returned the sentiment. Sure he's said the most sweetest things to me which do make up for not writing me, but like I said, the googly eyed, head over heels princess really enjoys a love letter from her Prince! So this morning I wake up to find a carefully rolled letter stuck in my keyring! I'm going to end this entry with the last few sentences from my letter because every time I read them I fall in love a little more...This man amazes me more & more everyday!

"Remember, everything I do, no matter what it is, you are on my mind. You make me feel like I belong. I don't think my feet have touched the ground since the first time you pressed your lips to mine"

XOXO~
Just A Girl 

♥ Everyday Life ♥

I figured I should throw something in here about my everyday ventures so here it goes!

Today I woke up not feeling very well. My chest hurt, my head hurt, I was coughing something terrible & my whole body felt like I got squished by a big giant boulder that fell from Mt Everest................I'm better now!

After wrestling my way out from under the covers(they put up a good fight!) I made my way to the kitchen & made a giant pot of strong coffee...while waiting for it to brew I woke up the munchkins. By the time I got them up & ready to go an hour had passed by & now we were a bit late...I must add now that I am almost always late wherever I go. If you want me to be somewhere on time I need a pre-arrival time of at least an hour, but don't tell me what time I can really be there because it just won't happen! I'm working on this issue but it seems like no matter how early I start getting ready, I still end up being late.

And on that note, I am going to go ahead & add that I believe myself to be a bit ADHD.  I do however love Belgian Waffles, the smell of rain & cut grass & clean clothes, french kiss scentsy, my kids' smiles, the way my man says my name, the way he makes me feel, the way he looks at me, the color green, the number 19, OU Sooners, taking pictures, music, looking at old pictures, thrift stores, high heels, & jager blasters on the rocks ♥ 

Back to my day....After I got home from taking the kids to school, I did the dishes & cleaned up the living room. I folded clothes, vacuumed, & took the dog out. He's a Pomeranian & just the sweetest little thing ever. I think he has an identity crisis though cuz he's always hopping in the window sill & on the back of the couch like a cat & he'll chase a laser light for hours!

I had pizza with ranch for lunch, visited a good friend, ran some errands, & picked the kids up from school. I made tacos for dinner, spent some quality time with the family, got the kids bathed & in bed & am now blogging about my productive day! This is as close as it gets to me twittering....I about covered everything that went on in my life today minus a few things ;)

Now I am going to hop off here & spend time with my wonderful boyfriend before I get some much needed sleep! I'll blog about why he's so wonderful tomorrow! ♥

XOXO~
Just A Girl

♥ The Perfect Side...........As Opposed To The Right ♥

I woke up on the perfect side of the bed this morning! It felt absolutely amazing to wake up to snuggles & kisses from the man who has almost captured my whole heart! I never thought I would feel this way about a man again after everything I've went through....sometimes we endure such pain & heartache that we tend to give up on love. I was to that point quite literally & wasn't even looking to date a man much less fall head over heels for one. They were dead to me...ALL of them! I built walls around my heart & named myself the Heartbreaker...my theme song became Break Your Heart by Taio Cruz because from that point on all I was going to do was break hearts of men because of the man that broke mine into a million little pieces. If you've ever been heartbroken you know that it literally feels like your heart has been ripped out of your chest & that there is nothing left but a gaping, black, never ending hole. My hole is gradually being repaired. This man is so giving of his love & so gentle with mine. He feels the slightest change in my emotions & carefully gets me to talk about what's going on inside me. I've never had a man who could read me like that & honestly it scares me a little...okay A LOT, but he has gotten me to open up like never before & actually cares about why I feel the way I do & wants to heal this broken heart of mine. I'm so grateful to have this man in my life who sweetly wakes me up on the perfect side of the bed every morning...

XOXO~
Just A Girl  

♥ A Little About Me.... ♥

I need somewhere to release my emotions as I tend to hold them in. I have found that it is somewhat easier getting them out on paper as opposed to saying them out loud. I am the type of person who holds everything in until I blow & that normally entails a bunch of tissues & someone's shoulder. The only time I normally let it all out is after a night of drinking. The alcohol inhibits my emotions to flow freely like the opinions in my head which should most of the time be kept to myself! Well, my opinions & emotions are definitely going to be spewing so I hope to hurt no feelings & maybe help myself mentally as well as maybe helping someone else also.

Most likely this blog is going to be as random as I am. I was going to try to keep it somewhat organized but I realized that the thoughts in my head are in no way neat & tidy. There are just random thoughts, ideas, opinions, vents, quotes, & comebacks floating around in my brain like the lava in a lava lamp just waiting to fly out of my mouth. I figure I'll just pick a topic, whatever's on my mind, & write about it. It may not make any sense to anyone but me, but that's okay...I'm going to get it all out & that's all that matters. I suppose I should give you all a little background information about myself for those who want to follow along. I'm a 32 year old mother of 3 great children. My oldest daughter is 10, my son is 9 & my youngest daughter is 6. My furry son is a pomeranian who is almost a year and a half. I am dating a wonderful man who spoils me, which is quite different from the usual douchebags I end up marrying. It is taking some getting used to that's for sure & I fight him every step of the way, but luckily for me, he can read me like a book & has the patience to deal with my stubbornness. He is kindly & ever so gently breaking down my walls that I have built to protect my heart. He is so great with my children & they just adore him. I am especially amazed at how my son has opened up to him as he doesn't open up to anyone. I hope to continue on this journey for a long time to come & wouldn't it be nice if this was the last journey I would ever have to make? I am a hopeless romantic despite what I've been through which is just crazy considering my novella of mistakes & regrets of the past............none of them my children....I wouldn't trade them for the world! They have helped me live through those mistakes & kept me moving forward even when the weight of giving up was resting heavily upon my heart like a relentless nagging mother-in-law.

XOXO~

Just A Girl