There are some days/nights that I can't help but let the tears flow...it doesn't help to try & stop them because no matter how hard I try...they just keep coming. It is times like these that I feel the most alone. I don't know that anyone could ever understand the way that I feel. I have wonderful friends & family, but when I get like this, I isolate myself. I know it's not good to do, but I don't know how not to. I eventually get over it...it may take awhile but gradually things return to 'normal'....whatever 'normal' is!
I have mostly good days with a rough one here and there. I think I am still in the grieving stage of losing my grandma May of last year...I've always had a problem processing death and letting my feelings flow when they should. I try to bottle them inside & ignore them. I hate that about myself. Hopefully one day I can learn to deal better & lean on a shoulder, but for now I'll lock myself up & get the tears out as they come along.
RIP Grandma...I miss you more & more everyday.
I think I know why this is happening to me...I shouldn't have missed her funeral. I have no closure from her passing & I didn't get to say good-bye.
I have found a new band that I absolutely love listening to..they lift me up when I'm down. I've been listening to them all morning & am beginning to feel a little better.
XOXO
♥ Just A Girl ♥
I'm sorry you are feeling down right now. If you ever want to plan a mini trip to the cemetary just let me know. Me, you and Colton (and maybe Garrett) can go. I've been wanting to go. There aren't headstones yet though but I know where they are.
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