♥ Not So Sure Anymore ♥

I've been sitting here thinking & have realized that I get on here & then find that I have nothing much to say or if I do, it's mostly just about my medical issues or family issues or about how I really want to start blogging more, which we all know, I haven't done like I said I would.  

I am still planning on hosting a giveaway to get my creations out there into the hands of people who I know will love them, but it may be later rather than sooner like I expected...UNLESS...I can get my craft room done & the supplies that I need!  So keep your fingers crossed for me please & say a few prayers because all of this also depends on my health.

So, I'll touch base every now & then, but mostly I feel like I'm just talking to myself anyway because I rarely get any comments on here & I doubt anyone is pimping out my blog like I pimp out theirs..not that I mind, but it's really not fair to me, so unless I hear something from the bloggers who I have listed on my site for other people to find soon then I'm going to start deleting them.  I want my blog to be a bit more simple anyway!  I feel like it's too cluttered with stuff & it's making me claustrophobic! LoL...For Real Though...

Well, that's it for today!  I'm actually up getting some cleaning done & have been for quite awhile now, so while I have the energy, I'm going to get back to it!  Oh, & honestly, I'm actually thinking about just starting over with this whole blog thing b/c I feel like I have royally failed this one...

XoXo
♥ Just A Girl ♥  


P.S. My feelings are a little hurt...I feel like I've really been trying my hardest to become a better person & keep in touch with people more, but it seems like nothing I say is ever good enough...making up for years of mistakes that I've made isn't easy, but I am trying, so when I get no response whatsoever, it's pretty hurtful.  I'm just going to keep trying & keep praying because that's all I can do!  Not going to lose my faith or hope that eventually things will be different!

P.S.S. Please send prayers for health & strength for my family & friends because they are desperately needed right now...Thank you to all who believe in the power of prayer & to those who ask of things from a higher being...All are greatly appreciated & everyone involved will be eternally grateful!

♥ A Great Giveaway ♥

There is an awesome giveaway going on over at Chicn Savvy Reviews!  Go enter to win here!

The giveaway is for a Keepsake Magic Fortune Cookie Pendant!  It is gorgeous & hand-crafted so each one is unique!

Entering to win is fast & easy & if you follow all the directions you will get multiple entries so you have a better chance at winning the pendant!  Don't wait!  Get your entries in now!  The giveaway ends March 9th! 

♥ Just A Girl ♥ 

♥ I'm Back! ♥

I am back! Finally! I have missed my connection to the outside world so much! 

A LOT has happened in our little world since I've been gone: we moved to another town, we have celebrated a few holidays, welcomed a New Year!, kids started at a new school, our car broke down, I've been diagnosed with some new health issues, but have gone off some of my medications & actually feel BETTER!, started exercising & eating healthier, ruled out MS (Thank the Lord!), started a new babysitting job, & I am still falling more & more in love with my man as each day passes!

I have come up with some new ideas for items to sell besides my jewelry, which I have been slacking on here lately, but hope to start up again sometime soon!  I have a few supplies I need to purchase & then I can start making jewelry again!  Along with the jewelry, I am going to be making something that has to do with owls & other birds & animals eventually, but I don't want to give it away yet...it will be a surprise & as soon as I get one done I will post a picture of it on here!  I can't wait!  It is going to be so cute!  To celebrate my new item I will be hosting a giveaway & there will be A LOT of winners!  I am not sure how many winners yet, but I know that I want to give them away to quite a few people at first instead of just selling them!  That is how confident I am that people are going to absolutely LOVE them!!! Everyone will want one!  So, make sure to keep checking this blog & don't forget to add me on Google Connect!  Share this with your friends & family & tell them to add me too so that you don't miss out on this huge surprise giveaway that I will be hosting soon!!!  I don't want to put a timeframe on it, but if I were to guess then I would say by the end of March that the giveaway should be up & running!

I also want to sincerely apologize for being gone for so long!  My little family has been through so much & we are still going through some difficulties, but I am ready & capable now of getting back to my blog & so I will be!  I may not post everyday, but I am going to try to post at least twice a week...I am still trying to unpack everything & get everything organized & because of my back issues, it has taken me a little longer than I expected! 

\Ok, I am off here to go unpack some more & start getting all of the materials put together in one spot so I can start on the SURPRISE giveaway item!  Please don't forget to add me & share me with your friends & family so they can add me too!  Soon, I will be making a Facebook page for my jewelry & other items so there will be even more ways to connect with me, but for now please use Google Connect! Thank you for your patience & for reading my blog!  God Bless!

♥ Just A Girl ♥ 

♥ An Update ♥

Well, I had said that I was going to start posting everyday or even every other day in my last post...unfortunately, I haven't been able to due to my never-ending (it seems) medical issues!

I have been doing alot of nothing here lately, except for sleeping & taking care of my sick babies!  It seems like when I get one well, another one gets sick!  My youngest just got over a stomach bug that my oldest had at the beginning of the week & now my man & I are both not feeling well.  I am hoping & praying that we don't end up getting it, but the odds are stacked against us right now. 

We are all doing good minus my health issues.  The kids are loving school & doing really good in their classes.  My son is in IEP & has made drastic improvements since he started.  He has really improved & is constantly impressing me with his schoolwork.  He is such a great artist & is always bringing me home something he has drawn!  He's a really sweet boy, when he wants to be, & those sweet moments are coming out more & more everyday!

My oldest is playing the clarinet now & is really good at it!  She is 3rd chair right now which is really great considering she got it coming up from the last chair!  I am so proud of her & I am really glad that she enjoys playing it! 

My youngest is in the 2nd grade & is excelling wonderfully!  She loves to go to school & I am so thankful for that!  She is coming along great socially as well. 
I am so proud of all 3 of them!

As for me...well, I've been going to the doctor a lot here lately.  I just had a urodynamics test done last Friday.  It tests bladder functioning & volume to see how strong or weak my bladder is.  I go get the results of this test on the 14th & then on Nov. 3rd I am scheduled to have an ultrasound.  When I went to my new gyno/uro the first time the doctor was feeling around on my abdomen and said that on the left side he felt a mass so that is why they are doing the ultrasound.  I will be having quite a few things done in the next few months because of my Interstitial Cystitis, Endometriosis, & multiple ovarian cysts.  He put me back on Elmiron for now to see if it helps any & they are going to take a camera & go up into my bladder to look at it to rule out bladder cancer.  Then I have to have surgery to remove the endo & cysts & he said that they are going to go up into my uterus this time & do something similar to a D & C & then send the tissue off to pathology to try to figure out why I keep bleeding for months at a time.  I am very nervous about having to have all of this done, but at the same time I am looking forward to hopefully getting some answers & feeling good again!  I mostly just sleep & I'm so tired of feeling tired all the time!

I guess that's about it for now...I'll try to update this blog more often from now on!

Hope everyone is doing good!

XOXO
♥ Just A Girl ♥ 

♥ Thank The Lord ♥

So, I had a doctor appointment yesterday with my new PCP again to talk about the whole who said I was addicted & what-not & about getting on something for anxiety.  As soon as she came in the room, she started apologizing profusely because they had gotten my charts mixed up with someone else!  That was a big relief!  Everyone was really upset when I told them this news last week so I am so thankful that it was just a big misunderstanding! 

She prescribed me Klonopin for the anxiety to take 3xday as needed.  I don't know if I'll need it that much or not, but as for now I'm taking it as directed until I feel some relief.  It would be nice if I only needed to take half a dose 3xday instead of a full dose.  I started it yesterday as soon as I got it & already I am feeling a little better!  I don't feel so agitated all the time or on edge.  I feel more mellow & calm & so far everyone still has their heads on, so I think it's doing it's job!  LoL 
I am just so glad this doctor really is listening to me and trying to help me out!  I was skeptical last week after Jeremy had talked to the nurse, but after my appointment yesterday, she really made an impact on me like she is the one who is going to be helping me get on the path to recovery soon!  She's already gotten all of my referrals sent out!  I go to the OU Women's Clinic in the middle of September & the doctor I'm seeing is both a Gynecologist & a Urologist so that will take off even more stress to see what's going on with my endo & IC.  I feel like I have been having more bladder pain here lately and sometimes I have trouble going so I definitely feel like I'm not getting any better thus far with this issue.  I have also been feeling pretty bloated & 'backed up' & it's not a great feeling.  In fact, it hurts like heck!  I'm sorry to be so forward in my posts, but I want women to know my symptoms & maybe it'll help someone else someday that has the same thing that I do, but hasn't quite gotten to a doctor that will listen to them and take them seriously.  The only way we are going to figure out what's wrong & symptoms of new diseases or old ones is to spread the word...two people with the same disease may have different symptoms & the list of symptoms described for diseases are only the most common ones out of so many people they have studied with the disease when in fact there may be more symptoms than just those listed, but they aren't listed because those people weren't in the study. 

The one thing I'm learning from all of this is that everyone has to stand up for their health!  If you think you have something wrong & you feel in your gut that something is not right than most likely you are right & you have to make your doctor listen to you and take you seriously!  Don't let them blow you off & treat you as if it's all in your head because most of the time, it's NOT!!!!  I know my own body better than my doctor, better than anyone else & I know when something is not right!  That doesn't make me a hypochondriac!  That makes me aware of what's going on with my body!  I do have alot of different issues going on with my body & I do alot of research on symptoms and whatnot to try to figure out what could possibly be going on, but ultimately it is the doctor who does the diagnosis.  If I think I might have something I've read about, I discuss it with them & ask why not?  Why couldn't I have this?  Especially if all of my symptoms are the same?   Just like with this Interstitial Cystitis, my mom asked well, how do you know it's not bladder cancer?  You know what the doctor said???  That we don't know that it isn't!!!!  The ultrasound didn't show anything remarkable but that doesn't mean that I still don't have bladder cancer because they haven't gone up inside to look in my bladder so I may very well have it, but it's too small to be seen by ultrasound right now!  That is why I have been so determined to get into a Urologist...with all of the symptoms that I'm having & with bladder cancer running in my family, it freaks me out to think that I could possibly have it & I want it ruled out ASAP if I don't or found & cured early if I do!  It is one of the easiest cancers to cure if it's found early!  So, why not get in there & find it & fix it before it's too late! 

Fight for your health friends!  No one else will!  Not even your own doctor if you don't stand up to them and tell them too!  You have to be persistent too!  If they aren't calling you, call them!  It's your life on the line, not theirs!!!!  What do you have to lose?!?  YOUR LIFE! IF YOU DON'T STAND UP & DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!  AND DON'T TAKE NO FOR AN ANSWER!!!!!  If you have all of the symptoms or a majority of the symptoms for something make them explain to you why you don't have it!!!!! They won't be able to tell you that you don't have it if they don't run the proper tests on you to find out! 

On another good note!  The only other referral I'm waiting on is for Pain Management in BA with a Dr. Briggerman-sp?  & as soon as that appointment is made I'll pretty much be all set up except for the rheumatologist, but that is pretty minor compared to everything else right now.  I hope to eventually get all of it taken care of, but right now we are focusing on the most important & painful issues.  My back still really hurts me a majority of the time so I'm hoping the PM doc will be a big help with that.  I'm just going to stand up and tell him what works and what doesn't & if he's not willing to help me I'll find a doctor who will!  Sometimes you have to search a while before you find the right doctor..the one who will really listen to you and take you seriously, but when you do, it is so worth it!  Remember, it's your life on the line!  Demand to be taken seriously!  Don't take NO for an answer especially when you have that gut feeling that something's not right! 

Well, I guess that's about it for now!  That's my rant for the day!  LOL  Sorry so long!  I just haven't blogged on here in awhile and wanted to update on what's been going on in my life here lately!  I haven't been doing much of anything except dealing with my health issues and sleeping!  It's time to get up & start feeling better!  I'm so ready!  I'm looking forward to the day when I feel back to normal or at least close to it!  I miss being able to play with my kids, cooking, walking, shopping, housework, everything a person would normally do on a day to day basis!  Never thought I would miss doing housework or cooking for my family, but I do & it makes me sad that I don't do it everyday for them like I used to!  I'm just so lucky that they all understand & love me anyways & are willing to help me out when I can't do much!  They are truly the world's most wonderful little family! 

Well, I promise to start blogging on here more often!  I'm going to try to write a blog everyday from now on...at least one every other day!  I'll try not to make them all about my medical issues either...I would love to add fun little blogs & get back to the basics of life...kids, love, family, & friends! 

I hope this finds you all doing well...at least better than I! 

God Bless!

XOXO

♥ Just A Girl ♥